Sunday, August 31, 2008


The fasting month is here,hopefully all is well throughout this month,selamat berpuasa kepada muslimin and muslimat sekalian....

Friday, August 29, 2008


that same old feeling, that jealousy, comes back to haunt me...its so hard to take..I think Im gonna cry.. T.T

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Im tagged

Okay,my bad..I opened Victor's page and found out I was tagged!!

So let's go! (Zohan's accent)

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
I think so

2 ) Describe urself in one word.

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
The one I love

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
Sure do.

5 ) Does it feel good to love?

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
Spending time together,anything would do

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
Tak nak percaya sudahhh...

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
I think so

9 ) Ever been jealous with other friends?
Oh yes,even the smallest things,I am a big jealous guy

10 ) What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
A part of me says:How do u do it?? , The other part says: F*ck off jerk!

[[ * PART 2 * ]]
1 ) Best place to cry?
Anywhere when Im alone

2) Who do you love the most?
The one I love.

3 ) Tell us ur dream last night?
I can't remember,maybe there was none.

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
Not sure

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?

-you had beer with

-you went to the movies with?
middle sis and Ali

-you hugged?
my pillow

-you yelled at?

-Kissed someone?
Do I have to answer this?If I do then define the question better

-Danced crazy?

If you could do anything OR wish anything, wad would it be?
I wish...I wishh...I wishhhhhhhh...haihh

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
Japan or Korea

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
Play2 punya adala

Are you old fashioned?
Maybe I dont care so much about it but Im not fuddy-duddy

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?Tell them that i dont love them back

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
The person I love.

5 Facts About Me:
4)Takes criticism
5)Keep it inside

5 Things that You Wish to
1)a new handphone
2)get my diploma,degree,masters,phd?
3)positive mindset
4)Rockstar XD
5)To love and to be loved

7 "First Time" in My Life:
Not planning to share this one

7 Words I Always Use:
1)oit,janganla~~`(slang raez)
6)tolong aku
7)eiii~~~ (slang raez)


Under Pressure

What's the "best" thing that can happen to u just after u had to go through an unacceptable deep-shit problem just a few days ago?You start your lectures again,greeted by dynamics of 2 hours lecture,material science of 1 hour,Islam in Science and Technology test plus presentation, and a whole frustating hour of Strength of material tutorials!!!!!

Man,at the moment I thought that my head would burst due to the towering pressure.Had a really painful headache for awhile then.Well,short term ubat,tidurlaaa..nasib lepas bangun ok oledi,but it was a 3hour sleep la...I worry about myself.Lately I find it hard to focus, and sometimes I just feel that I'm not looking forward to anything anymore...Time moves so slow...Ya Allah, please help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

boring wednesday....

Arrived penang today,at butterworth at 530am++.What a miracle,ktm train followed schedule!!!Went back home then by taxi wit a fren that i met up wit at the jeti.

What did I do today??Practically nthg useful's just another boring wednesday.Oh,and guess what, I read the papers, front face shows the face of Tan Sri Anwar Ibrahim,he won the byelection at my place,with a majority of 15000 votes,walaowehhhhhhhhhhh!!!Ah forget about it la,politics..

Unpacked my stuffs,and kept something that's sacred to me in a safe place.I was depressed.AAhhh~It's not going away....

Onlined the whole day,invited my friends to the house also,coz it was so quiet...made me feel so empty..memang pun suda empty...

They came,played game for awhile and we went off for lunch.They were my coursemates,one named Firli and the other is Hisham,they're kinda the few of my close frens in Penang.Saw Alya and Azimah while having lunch,haha...

Singgah their house sekejap,then I went back bosan sampai tertidur,gilaa..hahahah....Evening went off to Megamal Pinang,jalan2 kejap...bought some PC games,oh, and Ali's requested CM2008,hehehehhe...

Supposed to go to a play at USM tonite,but changed test la tomorrow..but I don't feel like opening the book...Going out just now..made me feel even depressed.... aihhh

Suddenly, I feel like writing out the lyrics of a Linkin Park song,so here I go:

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
This lack of self-control I feel is neverending
Controlling,I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
I felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
How I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
I felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Monday, August 25, 2008

Last few days in KL

I woke up late today,ahhh,why not??its my holiday and its monday for god sake!!haha,but I did woke up for my subuh prayers la..In that state of dizziness,I on my laptop , checking out somethings in the internet...And after that I started to do my BEL311 term holiday works...SUCKSSSS,especially this one la!!Bel311,aiyooo...english subjects are so damn boring in universities, this is my last for diploma,hope i dont have to repeat this freakin course pulak :P
Finished this stuff almost at 2pm...Oh,and I get to chat wit Trina,haha,its been awhile since I chatted wit jugakkkk :D Then I thought I should reward myself with a few games of PES6!! big la..bosan betulll...then sambung work again...reading my CTU211,aiyo got test ba this thursday,leceh betul...then Ali called...he asked me about my lunch,,and its already 3pm,hahaha,ok ba..aku makan aku makan...went down,fried some rice with eggs and sausages...didnt taste good..uwekkk

Sambung baca the book...Slowly but surely,the book was the one reading me..I fell asleep laa...apa macam!!!hahahah...

Ali came back,and I have decided to have pizza for dinner and supper for the tuesday morning match..can u call that supper?ahh nevermind la,the dinner pizza hawaiian supreme with stuffed crust,hoho...habisla jugak kami makan....then sudddenly the pizza guy came back...uik?!got one small pizza,free one ohh?!habislaaa..cannot finish.........sin sin sin

I continued reading my book,and I finished reading it about 1am tuesday morning,hoho...took my midnight wasnt goin to sleep,wana watch football ba..but then,the pizza,hawaiian chicken cannot finish lo...the small one luckily ali punya house mate finished...huhu..

Match ended wit a victory for my team,pompey0-1 MU ,oh yeahhhhh,lookout chelsea,here we comeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

going back to penang tonite,hope nothing goes wrong because of the byelection...PEACE Y'ALL

Getting past my days in KL

Was in Tawau spending my holidays,mid-sem break to be exact last week.Before that I went to my cousin's wedding,it was ok-ok la...stayed at Likas Square and my elder sis's house.The tv at her house was very good for watching football,but it disappointed me that Man U didnt win their first match in the BPL. *Curse that Martins!!!!*

Days in Tawau went like normal,my saga broke down,as usual,luckily I had this uncle's kelisa,ahhh...I can drive again!!!feels so nice.Met up with almost all the guys in Tawau, and I did went out with LYC a few days in Tawau.It was fun,life in tawau is so carefree...i miss it

An incident,that came out of the blue overshadowed my holiday,and the effects are carried on until this very day,but Id rather not talk about it,just feel that I wana let it out a bit.

I arrived KL on saturday noon,was in the flight with my uncle,boy,did he give me a brainwash,but somehow, it get stucked in my head because, and just because the way he spoke,the way of him conveying his message was just like my late father...very charismatic one oh!It made me feel like-I wanna study in UK already,hahahah...all dreams one la,but everything start form a dream wor..

Well well,it wasnt good news at all,when i got to the airasia bus that was heading to klsentral,this sensitive stomach of mine "buat perangai",habislaaa,im having stomach in the middle of a 1 hour journey bus..the experience was very very VERY unpleasant.The guy next to me also like a sh*t f-ing person,sleep tu sleep la but why tilt ur head towards me???crazy nuts,and I was holding my "gate" to make sure it doesnt explode!!

The truth was,it almost blew 3 times and at the last one,I almost give up,luckily...with that determination, I was able to hold on,went down th ebus, took my 3 heavy bags and made a dash towards the toilet to do my "business".

-Business was booming-

ahh,yeah,this victor tan,a friend of mine,wanted to treat me pizza and bowling, I remember,but I was unable to come sunway piramid owhhh victor,next time ah..

Sunday 24/8


hehe,wnt to watch the crazy zohan movie ,it was a very sexual movie and yet it was rated U.They did have some of the scene cut la,but,damn man it was sooooooo funny!

Had 2 games of bowling with my sis and her bf..I was confident I could win,I got the first strike man,cmon la I must win!!!

LAN 72
ALI 78


it was a first game...warm up round,thats wat i tot,but the second round pun 2x5 juga

LAN 82
ALI 102

WHATTT??!!!!This is really no good mannnn,DOWNNN.....


Guess what?I decided to open my own blog..still unsure whether to privatised or to make it accessible for the public..i just need this thingy to let out and write out something,but who knows I might end up being a blogger!!hehe

btw,i will be using bahasa rojak or manglish here,it may get boring as i dont really bother to upload pictures but I will try.